Thanks, VIckie. I've not actually been prescribed it just yet but that's what my doctor recommended. I'm waiting to hear back from him. Hopefully today.
I Googled the drug and I'm nervous/excited to take it. Some people say you get a little high from it ... like being on MDMA. But I guess that's only when you take 1500 mgs of the stuff, which I won't be doing. The last thing I need is for my body building up a tolerance for it and then the daily dosage not working.
That said, if it puts me in a positive mood, in addition to helping with my head pressure/pain, that's something I could use right now. As much as I try to stay positive I've been in a dark place as of late mentally. I've known I've had PsA for four years now but it wasn't until a year ago that I REALLY started feeling the effects of it in a big way. That, combined with turning 50, made me begin to wonder if it was all downhill from here. If the best years of my life, the ones where I was pain free, capable of anything, still striving to achieve things in life ... if those days were gone.
The me of five years ago felt invincible. I was a pretty serious weight lifter and fitness buff and people would comment all the time on how I was in amazing shape for my age. I felt like I was defying the odds. Showing people that a person in their mid 40s could be as healthy as a person in their mid 20s. And then WHAM ... the rug was pulled out from under me.
I think for the first three years after the diagnosis I lived in denial a bit. The full weight of it didn't come crashing down on me until I started to feel it in my head. As long as it was just a sore/weak wrist and a stiff neck - that I could deal with. But constant head pressure, pain, bouts of dizziness ... that's something else entirely. It's made me feel, over the last year, as if my life has been stolen from me. That my days of being the man I was are over.
I still try to stay fit. I try to stay positive. But, as I said, it takes a toll. I guess I'm just venting here. Maybe the Gabapntin will make a difference. i hope so.