It's all too much

I was diagnosed 6 years ago. This disease caused me to lose my dream job, take a huge pay cut, and totally lose all of my hobbies. I loved to work out. That was one of the only things that I had for me, and they took that away too.

No one understands the impact of psoriatic arthritis

I have yet to find a med that fully works; I always end up with an infection or allergic reaction. That being said, it keeps getting worse. The pain, the fatigue, the brain fog. It has made me depressed; suicidal at times. I feel like no one understands. It's affecting my friendships and relationships negatively. I feel very alone and very scared for my future. I am a single person and I own a home. I worked hard for it! If I end up being on disability, guess what? There goes the house, too.

Also, I am not sure if it is related, but I developed breast cancer recently. I had surgery and am currently on a chemo tablet, which also makes me feel awful! I don't know what to do anymore. Thankful for my child because she is what is keeping me alive. That's a sad, sad fact.

I have become a shell of a human. Near useless. Thanks, PsA.

Everyone says "have patience, be positive." Right, that's really easy. I have been patient. I don't know how much longer I can be patient for.

A slow, progressive, chronic illness is worse than cancer or death. Debate me. :)