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Hitting a Mental Wall With Psoriatic Arthritis

I am struggling, my friends. Saying that out loud isn't easy. Life with psoriatic arthritis isn't always sunshine and roses - and today, it's definitely lightening and weeds. I have so much going on in my personal life that is keeping my body in constant pain.

I am at a point where I feel like I am not accomplishing anything. I feel like I can’t get a handle on anything. I have gone through so much this past year, and this pain I am feeling is more than I can manage. It takes up my every thought. I can’t concentrate on anything. It is the worst it has ever been - it's all-encompassing.

How stress impacts my psoriatic arthritis

Stress is one of my biggest triggers. My neck and shoulders feel like I can bust bricks on them. My lower back feels like it is being squeezed in a vice. I have no control over who is turning the handles to make it squeeze harder.

Sleep pattern - what is that? I do not sleep well, so every day when I wake up, I am already tired, and the day has not even started yet.

All of us go through this phase, and yes, I call it a phase. I know that these pressures and anxieties will eventually phase out, and I can begin a version of stress-free living again. That sounds crazy, right? Well, I don’t think so.

So much of what I see is out of my control.

I have started using meditation, which only helps temporarily. Right after I achieve some version of calm, something comes along to put my body in the same stress response I've worked so hard to neutralize.

My house is a mess, which drives me nuts. I am very particular about my house, but my body hurts so bad I just don’t have the energy or willpower to do anything. That within itself puts my mental state on haywire. So much of what I see is out of my control.

Speaking of control, I don’t feel like I have any control over anything, including my psoriatic arthritis. I haven't found a successful treatment or any semblance of pain relief. Living with psoriatic arthritis is so hard.

A gentle reminder to prioritize my wellness

I have a great support system, but sometimes it feels like I am battling psoriatic arthritis by myself. Most of the time, I can listen to music to help make me less tense, but I'm currently not finding solace in this approach.

I was recently told that even when we are being inactive, we are being active. I never looked at it that way. Self-care with this disease is so important. I forgot that key piece of information.

Whoa. I have been pushing so hard and drowning in personal stuff that I forgot to take care of myself. I am the one feeling the effects of not resting and letting my mind stay so congested. Why is it that we tend to forget that we are the ones who pay the ultimate price when we let everything get the best of us?

I had to be reminded that self-care is what is needed now. I hope that it reminds you also. Now it’s time to be inactive and rest, which is still active. It’s a version of self-care, and it's important.

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