Feeling low from worsening symptoms
I feel like all I do when I come on here is complain so I apologize for that. I thought I was in a decent mood today. My neighbor had gone away for the weekend and her 17 year old daughter stayed home. She asked me last night if I could drive her to a place near where she used to live for their BBQ food. I said sure as long as her mom was ok with it and she was. So it was a beautiful day out, sunny, relatively low humidity. We got there and she wanted to show me her old house so we drove around and there was an old cemetery from the 1800s we checked out. It was really interesting and she knew the history of it so I enjoyed it very much. But why am I complaining? Because we walked a short distance to that cemetery and I was so winded I was almost going to say to her walk back and get the car and come get me but I didn't. I felt awful when I got back to the car. I just cannot understand how I have gotten in this shape. I am so worried now because in another week or so I will start a full time, 12 hour shift job. I don't know how I will do it but I have to. I need the insurance desperately from it. I just can't imagine what shape I will be in next year. Some days I really think I must be dying. But when I got home, I just felt so depressed because of how awful I felt. I'm getting tired of feeling this weak so many times. Thank you for letting me vent, I don't have anyone else.
Hi Skye1263. Please, never ever worry that you are complaining too much. That is what we are here for, to provide support and a place to vent when you need it. I am just glad we can be here for you. I know that you don't have insurance, but is there any chance you could afford to make one visit to the doctor before you start? Maybe there is something your doctor can do to get you through these next few weeks until your insurance kicks in. It might be as simple as steroids for lung inflammation or something like that. My brother felt an awful lot like you do now before he started taking Humira. Humira was a life changer. He later switched to Enbrel for logistical reasons and it has been equally effective. You might be pleasantly surprised once you find the medication that is right for you. He also got financial assistance from both companies despite earning a six-figure salary. So there is lots of hope on that horizon. Please keep me posted. I would like to hear how you are doing as your start date approaches and how those first few days go. Hugs! - Lori (Team Member)
